Another small price to pay to tap into a dream state. Rest for vividity. Eyes circled. Wired. Always looking. Discontent. Happy. Empty. Sad. And then it was all taken away. How can I understand when it was a given that I understood.
I watched you. It was just an act. You and them, the bigger. We were a small part. But this was real. It felt real. Just another stranger filled with possibilities and familiarity. You felt like home. I watched you walk away in amazement. A cocktail of emotions. My heart started in excitement but dampened by the lack of reason. Finally realized. I was content here once. Now this place brings me anxiety. Company brings me loneliness. A sense of distance. Isolation. I have to escape but don’t know how. Desire but no drive. Mind disconnected. Body stubborn. I went searching for you. In a crowd. In your disguise. I found you. It has to be you. I was so sure.
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